http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/ look away Tue, 05 Aug 2008 08:10:00 PDT http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2008. Movies Actors Humor http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/archive/49.html Fri, 25 Jul 2008 17:08:15 GMT I wrote an entry like this three years ago and I wanted to update it. My plan is to type the first thing that comes to mind so as to surprise even me. Hey, if you've been on sick leave for three days, you have to generate your kicks somehow.I am feeling: somewhat bloated -- I went out with one of my girl friends to a bar near ACCRA and inhaled some cigarette smoke. I needed to be reminded why I don't go to bars. Consider me reminded.I want to: sleep and wake up fully healed and stay this thin forever!I worry about: pending work that I left on Tuesday (which was the last day I worked)... (more) http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/comments?id=49 http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/archive/48.html Sat, 05 Jul 2008 02:09:57 GMT ...I guess we can talk about the Ghost.When I started this blog five years ago, I intended to set out in a public but not really public way, the emotional vise that was my failed relationship with the Ghost. I had chronicled our relationship almost ten years ago in a Dilbert diary I was using to keep track of school stuff, down to really strange details, like what color of shirt his was wearing when we ran into each other at the caf and what I doodled on his notes on a Thursday afternoon. I counted the days, literally, that we were not together. I said the most embarrassing, candid, naked,... (more) http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/comments?id=48 http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/archive/47.html Sun, 01 Jun 2008 04:52:26 GMT So I'm thirty now, not dating, burnt out, emotionally spent, suspicious of the future, and hungry because it's lunch time but I'm not moving anywhere because I have no one to eat with, and do not have enough incentive to leave my office on a Sunday morning/afternoon. Despite knowing my spiritual obligations full well, I stayed up until about 3 AM today talking to my good friend, the woman with a man's name, about my troubles. Might as well -- until this morning, I would not dream of coming home late for any reason aside from bone-crushing, spirit-robbing, mind-numbing work. If I'm riddled... (more) http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/comments?id=47 http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/archive/46.html Sat, 26 Apr 2008 10:37:44 GMT Last night, I got a literal pat on the back from one of the partners. It was... reassuring, I guess. That's pretty much all that I can say about the incident. -------------- On a completely different topic, I was reading my post on dreams and will now attempt to list my Lanky dreams (aside from the one where we had the baby that I gave away): 1. The one where I snuck into his room with 2 other friends but when his mother caught us, she only screamed at me and called me a slut; 2. The one where we were climbing a steep hill, he and I with the guy we will call the Ghost; 3. The one... (more) http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/comments?id=46 http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/archive/45.html Sat, 12 Apr 2008 06:11:32 GMT I dreamt that I received the death penalty and had to tell my parents. For some reason, I went to a theater where someone mistook me for a member of the chorus of Les Miserables. She pushed me onstage, forcing me to sing with the rest of the cast. I tried to exit the stage after the song but could not get backstage in time. Because the next scene had started, I had to sit and wait near the edge of the stage by the curtains and pretend that I was meant to be there. While seated facing the stage, I looked behind me and caught sight of my mother in the audience. I approached my mother to... (more) http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/comments?id=45 http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/archive/44.html Sat, 15 Dec 2007 06:14:48 GMT I am 26.7 hours away from meeting the required number of logged hours for an entire year. I think by Wednesday, I would have met my goal for 2007 -- to work like I never went on leave. I am sort of happy, which is good, considering the week I had. I had another one of those moments where I got a good look at my life and didn't like it. I got all depressed during our firm's Christmas party. Looking at one of my colleagues -- the one I've known for 10 years already -- made me realize my twenties are over and that I wasted it on not doing too many stupid things like getting married or even... (more) http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/archive/43.html Mon, 20 Aug 2007 08:55:54 GMT This is not a blog about carbs and trans fat. This is not about muppets. This is a blog about how heavily it rained last Wednesday, and how the water made its way with breakneck speed into the hairline space between the skin of my feet and the lips of my shoes, and how the dye in the suede insteps of those shoes came loose in a shock of color. This is about how and why I ended up with blue feet. Wrinkly blue feet, to be precise. I was dead set on making it to the Bureau of Internal Revenue in time for a morning appointment, but not as dead set as the tax examiners who were determined to... (more) http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/comments?id=43 http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/archive/42.html Sat, 14 Jul 2007 11:35:50 GMT I'm slaving away on a due diligence report. Well I was, until I decided to sneak another look at an opinion sent by my boss to a client last night, and decided to blog about it. I'm looking at it -- sigh -- no longer than a page, but utterly concise, perfectly worded, and simply brilliant. I took a first crack at this opinion and turned in what I thought was a correct one. Reading the final product shows that I was half right (or half wrong -- depending on how you look at it). It's always like this; he is one of two partners who routinely make radical changes to the things I write (he... (more) http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/comments?id=42 http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/archive/41.html Mon, 25 Jun 2007 08:25:24 GMT I twice had a dream that partners in my firm were upset with me. One time, it was a senior associate who was freaking out -- something about an appeal that I didn't file because I thought we won the case (in real life, we did win that case, and that was why I was so confused in the dream). Until this morning, I never had a real-deal, literal office nightmare. I can't say that now. I dreamt that my office was sitting on top of a 100,000 level underground crypt / columbarium / Chinese medicine store. I felt the presence of hundreds of dead people in the dream; a... (more) http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/comments?id=41 http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/archive/40.html Mon, 18 Jun 2007 13:00:08 GMT Since I could not mourn the death of my own grandmother when she died last year, it makes total sense that I cannot step out of the office two hours after the official end of the work day to attend the wake of my friend's father. My friend, the one who made me wish I looked away, is probably too grief stricken to notice that I'm not there. Is that supposed to be a good thing? Today marks the end of my first week back in the firm; my first week away from the multilateral bank. It also marks the end of any feeling that I did the right thing walking away from a... (more) http://lookaway.blogdrive.com/comments?id=40